Hello my darling. Who ever said this would get easier is lying!!! Nothing feels the same any more without you baby - our completion of our family. The sound of the birds singing or the smell of freshly brewed coffee in the morning, i no longer enjoy. The sheer excitement of Christmas is no longer there - I used to live for Christmas and imagine the excitement of your first Christmas and the little santa hat you'd be wearing, I imagine you'd be sitting up and we would all be laughing and we would all be happy and for real not just the pretend happiness that now overtakes our lives. Now I feel like I just live just for your sister and your brothers who are just as perfect as you and daddy and nanny and Grandad , other than that I will spend the rest of my life waiting - waiting until we can have a cuddle again. I miss you so much darling. Keep safe , I'm sorry I was not the one do that. I love more than anything my precious, precious little boy. Darling Nicholas - I'm so proud of you and all the joy you brought to everyone. God bless sweet heart. Sweet dreams x x x x x x x x x x x x x x
This candle was first lit on the 14th of November 2012 and will burn for 88 years 5 months and 26 days.